Today’s been a tough one. Whenever I had hurt feelings I would go and off load to Mum she would empathise and then I’d let it go and move on. Today’s one of them days where the loss could have been yesterday and I don’t know how to keep it together. Will I ever learn how to do this when it seems like even those closest to me seem to love me in one breath and in the next nip at me. It feels like I’ll never learn how to be a part of a world without Mum. It makes no sense that I find it easier to share like this than to reach out to a real person…
I’m off to retreat into fiction world to see if the break from reality helps!