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There’s a little competition somewhere in this blog…
Slimming World & Step Challenge Update
I missed last weeks weigh in and class due to my fibro being a naughty little Imp but I haven’t given up… I am mostly on track and although I will be eating what I want while I’m on holiday I’ll be straight back on it as soon as I am back! The step challenge is going much tougher… I have had more days than I expected to have where I haven’t been able to do even the minimum daily target (11,000). My plan at the moment is just to do what I can and see what I can achieve. I have until the end of september to get the million so hopefully I can get back on track over this month. My feet have been struggling with all the walking so I felt it necessary to show them some support (afterall, they’re always supporting me BOOM!)… in the form of THE most enjoyable pedicure I have had! If you’re local to Bedworth the salon I went to was Tweezers and I highly recommend them! Here’s their facebook to check them out… https://www.facebook.com/tweezersbeauty/
Last week I shared something quite scary for me to say so “publicly”. After posting I sent it to God… I asked for guidance. I don’t always get the responses I would like… but I always get what I need. Ever since I have had guidance in abundance! We would be here another week if I went into detail but the snapshot moments have been….
One person asked me “what an average visit to church would look like for me” My answer was that I’m nearly always walking in as the service starts so I get to do the head nod and smile to the friendly faces as we rush to sit down without disturbing to much. At times during the service we are asked to mingle I use my hubs social anxiety (cause mine is not a good enough excuse) to stay in our chosen pew, which often leads to us getting ignored or getting the last few seconds rushed acknowledgements by a couple of different people that are really good at not forgetting those that sit over the inside edge pews. At the end we nearly always stay for tea and coffee but again I make flimsy attempts at socialising… that’s when really I should be acknowledging my social anxiety. So I hide myself in plain sight.
Another person asked me “why don’t you talk to her?” I couldn’t answer this in the moment so I explained that normally someone who hurts me (unspoken is… this doesn’t happen all that often because I hide) doesn’t get another chance. I would rather be alone than around people that don’t actually value me as a human….. So I take confirmation that I am unlovable by anyone that isn’t obligated by blood.
A friend sent a group message to chase for a catch up… An action that always surprises me. I’m just so busy and often quite flaky too that some friends have fallen off the radar simply through neglect. It’s also, an action that even though rare should be noticed for what it is… proof that I am wanted in at least that friendship… it should be a stronger proof than the one noted in the last paragraph!
Lastly, I was thankful for someone elses experience… This was completely by surprise. I have known her for a while and we have had many conversations about life; God; family; people we know; being self employed etc. etc. She told me a few experiences she had with people that were supposed to be friends or family that had behaved in ways that would bring the Mama Bear out in her. It struck a nerve, she was discribing things that I had done or felt; things that as I have gotten older and happier, I’ve worked on changing. Hearing someone that I respect share so openly without the negative thoughts I have attached to them really resonated with me. I let my negative attributes decide how worthy I am.
I read an awesome book recently called Girl, Wash Your Face by Rachel Hollis. I highly recommend this book… It’s funny; crazy and honest… sometimes a little close to home, but with a whole bunch of love that you can’t not hear her message! Anyway, in the book she calls her friends and close family her ‘tribe’. It doesn’t have to be a big tribe but I am gonna let those that want to be in my life be there without hiding and without fear… Fear just lies to us anyway!
40 Before 40!
I was inspired by someone at work to do a list of 40 things I want to do/achieve by the time I’m 40!
I found the process of writing the list exhilirating… to really think about what I want in some detail was really Living Inspiring! It has also been tough to keep the list at 40 because once you get going the ideas just keep on coming! So with the spirit of fun lets have a little competition… I have number 5 on my list empty and I want you to fill it! in the process I would really love to gain a few more readers to join this little tribe so WHAT TO DO?… If you’re on Twitter follow @LauraCMannion and retweet the blog post with your idea of what shoud be my number 5… If you’re on Facebook friend request me https://www.facebook.com/laura.c.mannion (I’m wearing gold headphones in my profile pic) then share my blog post with your idea… make sure you tag me so I can see!
To see the complete list click the link… https://docs.google.com/document/d/1x1lmSDnweuiWiLTaywp469GWoEtyZAKZcy_aD7VkvWo/edit?usp=sharing
Blessings and Joy, Loopy Laura xx